This morning my Human Development professor asked me after class if I would like to speak to my classmates about Postpartum Depression. Is my name A'Driane?
Did I spend all of 2010 and 2011 living with and battling PPD?
Yes. Yes it is, yes I did, and hell yes I will speak to my classmates about such an important topic.
As soon as she finished the question my ear worm immediately started playing the opening lines & notes to "Lose Yourself" by Eminem....
Look, if you had one shot, or one opportunity To seize everything you ever wanted in one moment Would you capture it? Or just let it slip?
A chance. An opportunity. To own a part of my story. To speak openly and honestly about something that leaves most women feeling ashamed and reeling from the effects it has on their lives. A chance to educate and share the facts, not the myths, misconceptions or misleading information that perpetuates the stigma.
I've been given another chance to take what I know, what I've learned and what I've experienced and share it with others, and while I'm humbled and grateful for this opportunity, I don't want to choke. I don't want to back out of it. I don't want my anxiety and fear to get the best of me and push the mute button on my voice. I know it's just a class and not some big speaking event, but I still feel a huge responsibility to do it well and help people be informed. I'm learning that when it comes to owning your story, recovery, and healing from pain, taking advantage of the opportunities to speak about what you went through is really important. I'm learning that doing so helps strip shame, pain, and what you're battling of its power. So even though it's small, I want to make sure I do that here.
So I'm reaching out to you all. I need your help. If you could say anything about PPD or mental illness to a group of 18-22 year olds, male and female, what would it be? What would you want them to know? What should they know that you didn't? What do you wish someone had told you? What has helped you get through it whether you've recovered or are still trying to recover?
If you would prefer to email me your response, feel free to do so: bconfessions (at) gmail (dot) com
Whether you're battling PPD or are a survivor, please help me educate and inform. Your feedback is tremendously appreciated.
- Postpartum Depression: It Doesn't Just "Happen" to White Women (butterfly-confessions.com)
- Speaking Out on PPD, Motherhood, & Mental Illness (butterfly-confessions.com)
- Surviving Postpartum Depression (drkaytrotter.wordpress.com)