Have you ever had a moment where you just wanted to disappear? Disappear to a place where there is no chaos, no swirling of emotions....where your thoughts are far less turbulent, and your mind is oddly calm...still...silent...the rhythmic rise and fall of each breath the only audible sound?
Have you ever wanted to, just for a second?
In that second there would be no pain, no tiredness, no doggedly traipsing from one moment to the next hoping you'll survive, no fear of what's around that dark, shadowy corner of your mind.
No tears, no anger, no shame, no weighty opinions or criticisms, no slipping and sliding uphill to recovery, normalcy, FREEDOM.
Yes in that small second freedom would stand tall, grasp you by the hand and release you from all the weight you're carrying....
In that moment your freedom would be all you could hear, smell, taste, see and touch.
Have you ever had a moment like that? Where all you wanted was to be free from it all, just for a second? Just one?
That's all I want tonight....
"Then Jesus said, "Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest." (Matthew 11:28)
God that's all I need. Just one second to rest from all of this.